Is your cup half empty? Or half full?
I thought about these things in quantities of three and at the end came to a conclusion:
Things that make you go hmmm:
1. It took cheating on and leaving Steve for him to welcome children in his life.
2. Sometimes you love with all your big heart and still the beloved cannot love back.
3. You can love another’s child as if you gave birth to him yourself.
Things that fill my soul:
1. There are twenty piers sticking out of the lake, today 20 pelicans sat like statues on top of each one. Thirty more dove for fish by the shore.
2. With John Denver’s “Back Home” playing on my IPOD, in my office finally trimmed out, I stood this morning where my desk will soon be, and to the left I could see the bayou, and to the right I could see the bayou, and I got down on my knees and kissed the plywood floor and thanked god for getting to this point.
3. Sitting in CC’s listening to Jessye Norman singing Strauss’s 4 Last Songs on my IPOD, Sandy came and sat down at my table and chatted with me about riding her bike to her studio in the Quarter, and how she loved living here in MidCity, and she introduced me to another fellow artist (Ken) who had walked up to say hi, and I had her listen to Jessye singing and she said it was like being in the Napoleon House, and I said only we are in our own salon here in CCs – then she looked me in the eye and said “I have a charmed life,” and I smiled from deep within and said so do I, “I am truly blessed” and I want now to be done with the LaLa, to make room in my life, to help those less blessed than I am.
And my epiphany is that like Diana on the Starship Enterprise, I am an empath – I absorb what surrounds me – and I need to be careful about where I place myself. My cup is half to almost full. I want to make the right choices of what and who fills the rest of it up.