The Rise and Fall of a Good Plan
Sleep definitely helps – although again I’m a whirling dervish that could tunnel down to China given the right circumstances. Our options for escaping Arlington are growing slimmer and because there is a lot of energy going in that direction it feels like crash and burn ahead. We’re exploring alternatives that may not come immediately but think that something will come eventually. Now we’re looking at possibly one more month plus of exile.
The peripheral cities to New Orleans are taxed with evacuees. L writes the traffic is a nightmare, taking two hours to get from one part of town to the next in Baton Rouge. Dallas has nothing available now and Ft Worth isn’t worth considering according to one source in SF. Although I could really deal another month wtih our situation – think it might be getting rough for some in the group as previously described. As evidenced by N’s comment that it was a good idea for me to have gone out with P to the movies.
Familiarity breeds contempt as the saying goes – example when N says at lunch that my “place” with W is not to lose patience with him as that is his and V’s role I realize that people who don’t have access to you only realize one or two dimensions of you. I only said I was going to choke the little boy – kidding of course. And of course W has experienced many dimensions of me – my patience and/or lack of it before. But when another comment about W rolls around at dinner I feel suddenly like the interloper asserting myself into the unit. It gives me pause because my nature is to overdeliver and my whole being resists being carved up into little bits and pieces. Did I not ask a while ago – who wants just a little Rachel?
So that is what happens in exile – and forced cohabitation – your public face starts cracking and little bits of your private self dance right on out without you having any control over them. And relationships go deeper or pull back in accordance with new information. Best believe that at the end things shake out in their proper chapters – Chapter One: The Isle of S, Chapter Two: The madness of V, Chapter Three: W directs the 7th Star Wars Episode, Chapter Four: L does Laundry instead of Texas, Chapter Five: Thus Spoke N, Chapter Six: The metamorphisis of R. There are animals in this book too, but they only have cameos.