Throw it out to the sea
We have been indulging in long walks on the beach, sand sifting between our toes, sunshine, pelicans, dolphins, and Loca all capturing our attention equally. I had a feeling the other day as if I should be getting back home, doing something, accomplishing something – this anxiety followed me out to the beach each time and quickly disappeared each time.
We take long walks in the mornings and sunset walks in the evening, and Loca has developed a limp from overdoing while Wolfie remains on the balcony guarding the house for us – she is not fond of sun or sand.
Beachcombing has become the antidote to the hustle and bustle of our lives – a shell here, Loca chasing a sandpiper there, we have whittled down our concerns to a few. That’s not to say they aren’t few and big, but they seem less formidable walking together hand in hand.
If I had a crystal ball capable of hind as well as foresight, one thing would be crystal clear – 2009 has been a tough year, but it has been a building block for our relationship. Throughout the ups and downs, T and I have been steadily cementing our foundation for the future. A future that will not include my mom, might yet include a baby, and a future to which I look forward.