Age of Aquarius or Age?
I had a heart to heart with someone who has reached the same age as me and the same time as me when parents are ill and everyone seems to be dropping like flies. She said, I don’t know what’s going on, I can remember laying around and watching the Food Channel and having time.
I said welcome to my world – the world where every friend gets short shrift, where the question of the day is not should I call my mother but what time will I visit her in the hospital, and slice and dice the rest of it down to a warp speed world spinning out of control.
Another friend had suggested it is the coming of the Age of Aquarius and that if you buy into these things on December 2012 this will all wrap up and turn positive but in advance the world will spin, faster and faster.
I think it is more just the Age – my age – I have more friends both old and new, I have ailing family, I have my own health concerns, I have my own mental and physical limitations that I’ve yet to completely digest – and frankly, it’s all too much sometimes.
Today, I went to see my mom, who is doing better after her code blue situation the other day. She looked at me and told me to lie down. So I just got in the bed with her and watched Dr. Phil. She was talking a blue streak but I could only understand every other word. She said she was making a list of things she had to do. I said, I wouldn’t worry about your list mom. She fell sound asleep and I then snuck out and drove back to my chaotic world to wrap up the day of work, getting ready to see a friend in town from Chicago, and then go to the opera, Tosca.