The wild roller coaster corporeal ride of your life
Last night, we were talking about this weird stage some of us are entering as women – for years there has been this monthly cycle that begins at ovulation, which is the peak, then begins this steady drop off – imagine a roller coaster at the top coming down, and on the way down there is a sharp point where you are so horny you can’t uncross your legs, then you are so hungry you can’t get enough food in your mouth, then there is incredible pain and emotional unrest, then POP significant relief when suddenly this rush of hormones wash through your body as your period actually starts, and then there is elation, a sort of walking on air feeling, and then the roller coaster car starts chugging up hill slowly climbing back to the peak. It’s the rhythm of your life from about 12 years of age till 40 something, and then you hit mid 40s and it all starts contracting or expanding or disappearing or reappearing too soon, and you enter this weird perguatory-like vortex where you can suddenly find yourself horny, cranky, hungry all in the same hour, and the next day in incredible pain, hot flashing, and elated within moments of each other and some days you forget your body exists. The doctors say you might do this for ten years before it all comes to a screeching halt or not, it could be a slow braking for several years, no one really knows. Whatever it is, you suddenly don’t have a cycle anymore that you can count on, and every day has to be accepted as a surprise attack by hormones, lack of hormones, or sometimes no response at all.
This is the body I am talking about – imagine what the mind is like at this point in your life.