Arbitrary as truth can be
The word of the day is arbitrary and this sort of ties into what I was broaching on yesterday’s topic as it pertained to the article in the Atlantic. Our emotional buttons are not arbitrary but there are ways to rewire everything that comes at you.
Last night, I spent a fitful sleep contemplating again – contemplating a feeling of being a microbe adrift in a sea of fluorescent green jello. My body actually had a physical reaction to this emotional state – my legs kept twitching, my arms felt heavy, and my neck felt like it was a log connecting a balloon to a plank with springs attached to my extremities. I thought about taking something to help me sleep but instead I rode the wave of anxiety, fear, and overall disgust because by morning I knew I’d have an answer.
I woke this morning to this as my horoscope:
December 12, 2008
Taurus (4/20-5/20)
Today, share your thoughts with someone who has frustrated you a lot lately — and see how they react to what you have to say. Total honesty is required if you want to do this right, so don’t be afraid to fully disclose how you’re feeling about them or about what they did. The sooner you do it, the sooner you’ll know what’s next for the two of you. So now is not the time to pull any punches. You don’t have to be confrontational, you just have to be firm.
And not that I put all that amount of weight into a random horoscope for Taurus but I do believe in a world of connections and so since the horoscope for me today answered exactly the question I was asking myself, I thought huh.
Later, I was speaking to a friend who was disgruntled about a similar situation and she said to me, “I am not sure what is going on but don’t piss on my leg and tell me it’s rain.” And again, from this random universe came another answer, arbitrary though it may be, to my question.
By mid morning, I knew that no matter what the universe throws you – whether it is a Mardi Gras bead or a curveball – you have one obligation in your life and that is to be true to yourself. In that truth, you cannot fear that you will lose anything, because you have only one thing of value to hold onto and that is you.
And I would give up the LaLa, and give up my job, and give up any other material object I own in the world if I had to be other than myself. And so, arbitrary though a horoscope may be, or as amusing and catchy as most Southernism indeed are, my word of the day is truth, not arbitrary – and my advice is if you are backed into a corner, smile but be honest.
Word up.