6-6-06 * the devil you say?
Subject:Â HELLO! AWESOME!! FANTABULOUS!! FANTABULOUS!! LADY!!
Dear Ms. Good_Attitude,
Hello. Fantabulous Monday Evening to you. I Really Enjoyed Reading your AWESOME Profile. YOU ARE A AWESOME LADY!!!!
My friend got this from someone who saw her on Match.com – you got to admit it has bravura in spades. Not that she isn’t a fantabulous lady, I mean come on, she totally is.
Took back my life again this morning – got out of bed at 5AM and walked the Bean as dawn’s rosy fingers were still gracing the sky and reflecting into the glassy water of the bayou. Got back early to get on my bike and take a ride out to the lakefront where again I was transported to a better place. Came home and started making my calls – first my upfront television sources – got some news but have to wait on more deals to break. Then to call the window guy to come to the LaLa – and it was starting up again – the wretchedness of yesterday – and he needed to know info from N and it was a meeting that was supposed to happen months ago and R said he could not do what N said he was supposed to do so I put those two in touch with each other and on my next phone call – Orleans Sheet Metal said they were coming out TODAY to give me an estimate and I was like WOO HOO! Phoenix, we have contact.
Again what a difference a day makes. I think it started after I came back from my bike ride and my sister called and I could tell she was all messed up and she started talking about how she had been having spikes of pain again – she had a freak tragic thing happen while at the dentist a few years ago – he hit a nerve and now she has permanent RSDS and partial facial paralysis – the pain was instantly addressed with morphine that took almost two years for her to then wean herself off of and now she is trying other pain medication but it makes her spacey. Anyway, we hardly speak at all because we’ve had our differences since Hector was a puppy, and after this accident she has been incoherent in her emails and angry in her phone calls and it is hard to take particularly from someone who was all friction before anyway. So I try to tell her like it is – you have two choices S – you can be a victim or you can rise above it. And in telling her this daunting pain she has to learn to live with can be overcome, I hear my own words and know that I struggle with my heartache and I fall and get up and fall and get up, but I have been staying up longer and going down less hard each time and I’m speaking the truth. I know she has the power within her to find a way out but she keeps chosing victim – like my tia said “don’t feel sorry for yourself” – pick up the pieces and go on you FANTABULOUS lady, you.
Meanwhile in response to my canoeing entreaty – a friend from California writes and I share with you because it has a wealth of info on paddling alone (ahem):
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Hi Rachel,
There are some technical hurdles to overcome in order to canoe by yourself that I thought I’d chime in on. (You know me – I’m pretty useless as far as personal hurdles – witness my own tone deafness in my relationship) As a boy scout I had some interest in canoeing and even got my canoeing merit badge. Many of the trials to get the badge required solo canoeing skills.
Any how, to get the canoe across the street and into the water by yourself, use a two wheel dolly like one of these:
http://www.paddleboy.com/pages/End_Carts.html
Put it under the bow and pick up the stern and watch out for cars. Don’t forget to take the wheels off before you slide the canoe into the water.
With the canoe about 3/4 of the way into the water step in front of the back seat with one foot and push off the shore with the other.
The best position for a solo paddler is kneeling about 1/3 of the way from the stern, so you might want a cushion for your knees. If your back gets tired you can scoot back and lean your butt against the front of the back seat, but that will cause the bow to ride kind of high out of the water.
Paddling in a straight line is the hardest part. If you just paddle a straight stroke you’ll start curving off to the opposite side you’re paddling on. To go straight as a solo paddler you need to use some version of the J stroke as described on the following web sites:
http://www.ehow.com/how_11363_j-stroke-canoe.html
http://www.gregcons.com/canoe/techniques_strokes.htm
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So I bought the Tomato paddleboy and a life jacket for the Bean – I had bought human life jackets when I got the paddles at Sports Authority on Sunday.
Then since it is upfront season and I’m busy – I am doing old home week and caught up with a dear source in Los Angeles who said “I’m 46 and going home to my 4 and 6 year old boys every night is the highlight of life. They are the joy of my life and I couldn’t be more blessed.” He also said in listening to a radio program the other day on personal finances the question was “what makes you happy?” and a caller chimed in and said “I just tell myself I am happy and I am” – we both agreed it is the only way to proceed.
Then one of my colleagues signed me up for a pole dancing class – fabulous you say – no fantabulous! So end of the month – up in NY – I will be releasing my feral self and addressing the pole. Excerpt from the class curriculum: This class takes the art of striptease dance to the next level while you experience a steel pole partner of pleasure just waiting for you to spin and glide your way around the the pole.
God, save me from myself – canoeing, dancing on a pole, renovating a house, la la la la la…….
And my Tao for the day – #71
Not-knowing is true knowledge.
Presuming to know is a disease.
First realize that you are sick;
then you can move toward health.
I ended the evening having a meeting with G about our product. Then she was off to Snug to hear Tom McDermott. I was content to be holed up here in my “despressing” apartment as G also referred to it. I left a message to see if T wanted to go canoeing.
The devil is in the details…………..