She swims with dolphins
She wants to swim with dolphins, instead she swims through jello most days. She being me, of course. The one thing that I learned today is that there is always tomorrow – no need to put a shotgun in your mouth, because really there is hope.
I have this secret thing going on right now where I just have a good feeling that it is all going to work out. That come 2008, I will be sitting here at the LaLa, my financial house in order, my health good, my loved ones happy, and a loved one with me – someone who matches my affirmation to a T – I marvel at how I wrote this blindly a few months ago:
How does it feel to be in love?
Love is a desire to want to be with a person, to come to love them more than yourself, and to constantly want to learn more about them. It is a feeling that I love who I am when I’m with this person and they are obviously and transparently in love with me – the person adds measurably to my life with fun, humor, insight, kindness, sensuality, touching and kissing, sex, spontaneity, dance and music, loves me for who I am and doesn’t want me to change, and I am proud of who they are. A person who surprises me, who gives to me lovingly, who wants to delight me, who fits in easily with my friends and family, who is so easy to look at I want to look at this person all day.
To think that this person appeared presto change-o into my life is a miracle.