Jealousy – the green eyed monster
November 15, 2007
I joyfully answer my soul’s call! I open up to a new idea of myself!
That is my daily affirmation this morning and it seems so, I don’t know, joyous, exuberant, la di da! But this morning didn’t start like that. Forget about that certain someone who thinks (knows) her husband is cheating on her while he works at a job in Texas, that is honest to goodness jealousy.
I was jealous this morning when my friend S told me that his #1 on his dating list was moving into a more secured position. Feeling sickly and a lighter shade of pale than normal, I thought as I walked around the bayou to get Coldeez from him that his time might suddenly be absorbed and he might not be in my life and, and, and what? He says he’s flattered I’m jealous – blech – doesn’t make me feel any better.
Wikipedia says that jealousy typically refers to the thoughts, feelings, and behaviors that occur when a person believes a valued relationship is being threatened by a rival. This rival may or may not know that he or she is perceived as a threat.
The opposite of jealousy is compersion. Who ever heard of this word – compersion? Again, Wikipedia says compersion is a term used by practitioners of polyamory or swingers to describe the experience of taking pleasure when one’s partner is with another person. Good god – that would not be me – in my quest to have it all, to want it all, I DO NOT WANT COMPERSION. Just so you know.
Whew, I feel better now.