Debunking the Rational Mind
I’ve spent a lifetime coming here – here being the place where I’m learning to separate my thoughts from myself and choose happiness over suffering. It’s taken time, it’s taken hard knocks, it’s taken learning. And none of these things will get me to graduation day because now that I know, I have to keep knowing minute by minute and day by day.
Today when ADP issued two payrolls thereby wrecking havoc across two different bank accounts as well as my property tax check that I’m putting in the mail today, I just told the woman, nothing you are doing is helping me so just go on and do what you need to do. She was reciting policies about how they had voided the first one but then it went through anyway and it would take five days to reroute and then I would have to send in a statement for the NSF that this would create with the other bank account and they would reimburse when they received it. I was like wow – and this is helping me today how? So I left her to it and I called my bank and told them what was going on and now I’m back in the saddle. See there are always circumstances vying for your happiness. But if you choose happy, they come and they go.
Like most things in life.
A friend who is in the midst of splitting with her partner is seeking clarity – she is reading The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer and I picked up a copy and am almost done with it. Singer’s premise is that we can separate ourselves from our thoughts and come to peace knowing we are born and then we die and that’s really all there is to it. Everything else is a mental construct that we have built and caged ourselves in and is truly what makes most people miserable.
Even my trying to understand why I spent so many years with people who were more about being rational than emotional beings is me trying to reconstruct or reframe or understand the cage wire by wire instead of just letting it go. Just saying, that was then, this is now, and moving on.
And so this is how I came to find peace, happiness and contentment in my new life – by divorcing my thoughts from my self. My replacing the negative energy that caused me so much suffering with positive and loving light. Everyone comes to their own enlightenment in different ways – I would not encourage anyone to follow my path, but I would gladly tell them where I am is worth traveling to.
