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My horoscope today:
Jan 21, 2014

Taurus 4/20-5/20 (change)
Someone is courting you — it could be romantic, professional or just someone who wants to be friends. Your amazing energy makes you even more attractive than usual, so don’t be too surprised.

A friend of mine is want to say “more will be revealed” and I’ve never felt the truth of that statement more than I have than in the last few weeks where what I perceived the first week of January has been kicked to the curb and a sudden breath of fresh air has blown in. I was at the Blush Ball – the Pussyfooters’ fundraiser – the other night and it was an event I didn’t really feel like going to but after deciding on what to wear I was out the door and there and it turned out to be an incredibly fun night.

Fortuna’s Wheel keeps spinning and what I’ve seen in the last couple of weeks is that I’m up. Here and there I’m meeting people and here and there my friends are gathering and here and there work is presenting itself and so more than anything in life I’ve come to know the weight of the words, more will be revealed.

I walked along the streetcar tracks to Canal Place yesterday and went to see August: Osage County with a friend. Powerful movie that unearthed the tenets of more will be revealed – here everyone thinks they are in control of the truth and yet, more is revealed at every turn, and there it is in all its glory: life unfolding.

My friend and I spoke about how you have to let the waters wash over you – the one where you are on the bottom of Fortuna’s Wheel, or the one where you perceive everyone but you at the top of it. And everything takes time – it takes time to mourn a relationship, to grieve for its lost potential; it takes time to change gears, and redirect yourself on a new path; it takes time to get to know yourself and then to let all you know go. These things take time.

As I walked along the streetcar tracks a man circled a few times and then pulled in front of me – “Can I give you a lift? You don’t have to walk here by yourself.” I smiled, he was the embodiment of a metaphor. “I’m good,” I told him. In a few minute exchange I heard the beginning of his story – Antoine Jerome – Creole? – AJ – single – not gay – would buy me a drink and pay for it – and he had to work tonight but couldn’t help notice me.

I’m good, I repeated, smiling.

My friend and I spoke about how this grand experiment called life is constantly changing, which requires us to constantly show up. And if I have learned anything in my years it is being present. It’s not something that comes easily to me, I have directed my entire living to a future-oriented goal, and so to be still, to be here, to be now, is not something that comes easily. I thank Alex, who first gave me The Power of Now, and I thank Susie who told me she listens to Ram Dass for inspiration, I thank Linda who has been reading an affirmation with me every day so far this year, and I thank my parents who taught me about faith – my father’s oft-repeated mantra: it’s the darkest hour just before dawn.

I’ve come to know life through these cycles where sometimes it seems the rotation of Fortuna’s Wheel is a slow and drawn out symphony and sometimes the wheel is spinning so fast it looks headed for a train wreck.

And still I rise.

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