What to do next?
I heard someone say that their mother always told them, “When you don’t know what to do, don’t do nothing.”
When I’m at my lowest, I want to knock on someone’s door, ring them on the phone, stand there face to face and ask them what I should do next? These are the times I miss my mom most because despite most things, she was a good sounding board. But I always know when I have hit rock bottom, because I want to ask someone else to tell me what to do with my life.
I asked Tatjana’s mother what to do the other day and she said, “Only you know.”
The denouement of my 19th nervous breakdown has brought relative calm and I am no longer asking, I’m just surfing. My Chinese fortune cookie said, “Never give up until you reach the finish line.”
Uh, okay.