It’s one mistake not many
We were speaking about the indiscretion – five long years and how one could tell so many lies. I said not many, but one. It is not easy to tell a lie, but once you do, you are faced with the ugliness of owning the lie or telling one after another to cover up the original one. To forgive five years of lying, you have to be strong enough to forgive the first lie. And I’m just talking about the liar forgiving, not the ones lied to.
March 22nd, 2011 at 8:24 pm
That first lie, the big one, the only one that counts, I wonder now how I could have written these words almost two years ago: “The first lie is the trick of the thing. You hover on the brink of it as if standing on the edge of a pool, stepping tentatively down into it–goose flesh rippling up and down your body–and then you plunge in, coming up invigorated and intensely alive and wondering what all the worry was about.”
Now I am living the lie out, both in the truth of my life beyond the lie but also daily, hourly in the consequences with those I lied to. It is not a burden I would wish on anyone.
March 22nd, 2011 at 9:54 pm
Amen