Another chance
Last night in meditation we ended the compassion cycle we have been on and I have to say Thank God. There is only so much compassion one can have in their heart. Sorry, I’m limited. But when you have to go in there and place this difficult person in your life in the midst of your meditation, well it grows tiring after a while, because sometimes holding onto anger is a lot easier and a lot more fulfilling. Maybe not in the long run but hey, who knows if we will be here in the long run.
I finally finished the last entry in the New Orleans collection and maybe that is what has contributed to my melancholy – I have been having difficulty starting a new novel and have been slowly reading these entries. I simply cannot read or watch anything about the Great Levee Failure of the United States Government without feeling somewhat sick and hopeless. Despite the fact that we have worked our way back, we are still standing, and thank god we are not up north knee deep in snow.
Taking a page from one of my yogis, you have to use every opportunity to start over again. So today Flower sent me a quote from a used car dealership’s newsletter which I thought was appropriate as today’s inspiration or aspiration:
Every man should be born again on the first day of January. Start with a fresh page. Take up one more hole in the buckle if necessary, or let down one, according to the circumstances; but on the first of January let every man gird himself once more, with his face to the front, and take no interest in the things that were and are past. Henry Ward Beecher.