Miracle Man
Saturday, February 23rd, 2008Driving T home from the compound – the official end to our third date – we passed a truck with a sign that said, “Miracle Man – I can fix anything but a broken heart.”
Archive for February, 2008
The whole world is sick
Friday, February 22nd, 2008Everyone has the flu – whatyagonnado?
“O.K., I’ll be part of this world.”
Friday, February 22nd, 2008Last night, went to see No Country for Old Men – Javier Bardem’s eerie smile and red rimmed eyes are still burned in my mind. But the ending is what haunts me – the larger than life angst of one man trying to survive in desperate times that aren’t so different than other times – when Tommy Lee Jones’ character says at the end “and then I woke up” it’s the nightmare that he can’t shake, the evil incarnate in Bardem’s character that outmatches him and becomes his burden, the dream he cannot slake (he was going to give me money, but I lost it).
Same psychosis – different day
Friday, February 22nd, 2008Here in the US we have our typical lone gunmen shooting down students as witnessed at NIU last week, whereas yesterday, in Serbia, they are burning American flags and rooms in the US embassies in protest over who owns what land.
Same old psychosis, different day.
I’m not missing you
Thursday, February 21st, 2008I sit here on my throne trying to contemplate how I will endure two hours away from you and realize I must endure two months plus and therein lies my next obstacle to overcome. How can I possibly be without you?
A blood red lunar eclipse
Thursday, February 21st, 2008There was a total lunar eclipse last night but T and I walked out on the porch when mom called to tell me and couldn’t see it. We decided one can’t see an eclipse. But today I read it made the moon blood red – how gorgeous is that – a red moon – so rare. The next lunar eclipse comes in December 2010.
Not monkeying around in the blog
Thursday, February 21st, 2008I don’t want to parrot you
I don’t want to monkey see monkey do
I don’t want to mock
I simply want to delight in how different and similar we are in the same breath
– a breath so close I’m not sure if I smell you or me or the alchemy.
Mi querida novia sends me enchanting poems
Thursday, February 21st, 2008CASIDA DE LA ROSA -Federico García Lorca
La rosa
no buscaba la aurora:
casi eterna en su ramo,
buscaba otra cosa.
La rosa,
no buscaba ni ciencia ni sombra:
confín de carne y sueño,
buscaba otra cosa.
La rosa,
no buscaba la rosa.
Inmóvil por el cielo
buscaba otra cosa.
A poem for me from my canikom askim
Thursday, February 21st, 2008
La Vita Nuova
In that book which is
My memory . . .
On the first page
That is the chapter when
I first met you
Appear the words . . .
Here begins a new life
– Dante Alighieri
What age makes you wonder
Thursday, February 21st, 2008In this budding relationship we reflect on our friends who are in the throes of the ten-year mark – they can’t get back to where we are, but they have so much of what you hope to be – can they have faith they can keep moving forward? We hope so. What keeps you in a relationship once the bud has bloomed and bloomed – it’s why I love peonies – so many petals to open – so long a time before they fall.
It’s a mystery how relationships make it past the decade mark – should they? – what awaits you in decade two? – on a lark I googled “how to sustain a long term relationship” and came up with a wiki site – naturally a wiki site for how to keep going – how telling of our times that this advice exist for you at the ready. But I agree with its tenets (a child is the deal breaker) except I would add to the list to be brave – to allow the changes in you to occur and have faith your partner will accommodate new elements of you and delight in them even if they seem threatening at first.