A long day’s journey into the night
This has been a day of shifting plans – an organic creation – LaLa all day, cleaning windows, sweeping floors, chucking trash – sorting paint. A quick reshuffle to pick up my niece from Memphis – adorable – just into college and already changing – drop her by my other niece and see my great niece (beautiful) – go by my mother’s – her birthday, sick with the flu, weak and out of breath – run home and change – go by G’s – she’s painted a painting for me as a present – elephants (of course) – into the Marigny to celebrate R’s birthday with others – I’m grumpy R says – she called me an asshole earlier to G on the phone – G and I got invited to D’s wedding – she’s marrying a 28 year old! – whatyagonnado? – nothing is ever what it seems – she’s also pregnant! – I want what I know I don’t want (is that right?) – it’s such a difficult sorting out – in the end, it was the right thing to do – to have done all those things in one day – L says C asks him how I get the energy – please – someone needs to stop me – in the past it was always the laconic still one who dialed me down – now I have to save my own self from me. Sigh.