Alone again, naturally
It is so beautiful outside, I can’t begin to tell you. Of course, my lens on the world is cloudy today after having stayed up late last night and then waking up at 3:30AM with house terrors – I thought G was still asleep on my couch but she had snuck out. I got up and finally took an Atavan as I could not shake the terrors which seemed more virulent than the ones that I have had before. When I finally got up again at 7, it was because Arlene could not be still.
So we went for a walk around the bayou, which was so peaceful and beautiful this morning. I saw Ms. Marie in front of her house, so we walked over to say hello. She was telling me how she visited her son and it was strange because you look out his front door and all you see are houses – with no people. She said the people drive into their driveways and pull around in back of the houses and so you never actually see anybody.
We both sighed at the thought as we stared across the bayou to my house. She said when she was younger the levees along the bayou were built higher with board forms to prevent wakes from coming over the levees since there were no locks controlling it from the lake.
I begged off to come home and get my bike – the day being so utterly gorgeous that only a bike ride would do it justice – and she said she wished she could get on her bike. Her doctors told her she couldn’t ride anymore because she’s too old. I told her to enjoy her day nonetheless and she said she would even though she is alone.
I said, I’m alone too after having been married my whole life, and sometimes it’s good and sometimes not, but it’s much better than feeling alone when you’re with someone, that’s for sure.