Unnecessary possessions
Last night I dreamed I was having lunch with an old friend and her mother and new daughter and she told me that she “cries every day” and I said “so do I” and then she lost it and said angrily “if he winds up with you I will never speak to you again” and I calmly looked her in the eye and said “you never have to worry about that happening.” Today sitting at the redlight and watching the man in question walk across the street I marvelled over how flesh and bone could cause me to lose all sense of myself and reason, I watched his every familiar motion, and thought is that all there is to a lover?
L, man of no more mystery, called last night and whatever bubble of chemistry there was with him is popped for me – I realized I was summoning the passion from a former time to bear on those moments of intimacy with him and suddenly that wasn’t working for me. That and the fact that he may have shown too much of his cards – some of which was a degree of racism. I warned him before he took his comments further that I may look white on the outside but I’m all dark meat on the inside – Spanish Jew cloaked in a Catholic Irish demeanor – I told him he had an exotic sitting on his lap so watch out.
This morning in an effort to reassert myself to an early schedule I pushed on out to the bayou with the Bean and there was the Bayou Stone Fox – all smiles and dimples – running towards me, I stopped him and invited him to join us on August 29th for our commemoration on the footbridge. Cutie pie but he was standing so close and for a moment I thought I smelled alcohol on his breath – whatyagonnado? – it is New Orleans after all.
This morning my horoscope – Taurus – said: Your common sense can help prevent you from accumulating unnecessary possessions – no action plan needed, I burned that man in effigy already and don’t have time for cads either.
Going to try to get the canoe out this week weather permitting. Quote for the day: Don’t let anyone rent free space in your head.
LaLa technicality – the debate ensued over shower pans. The tilesetter – C – told me to get the plumber to put in the shower pans – he highly recommended copper and said to make sure the plumber put in a weeping drain and make sure the flange was glued onto the PVC or soldered to the copper pan. I called the plumber – L – and he said I haven’t used a copper pan in ten years, the rubber works fine. Then I called S – the contractor – who said they use fiberglass pans – the tilesetter said he can’t put tile on the fiberglass because it has a pitch – so he said I recommend the copper, it will last forever – do I need forever? – the plumber said it would be $2000 – good grief – so now it’s back to the rubber pan which is “passable” my elite tilesetter said. I have picked a 30+ year roof, and am aiming at a 100 year everything else but after a while you have to pick your battles – $2000 for two shower pans? – is that necessary, inquiring minds want to know. S called later in the day on his way to Portland for his second interview with BOORA and he said go with the rubber but S – the contractor – called back and said let’s see what his tilesetter said.