Surprises
I’ve been living at the American Can since May of last year when S and I moved here from California and bought the LaLa and started working on it. How many times have I been down at the pool and had to come all the way up here to use the bathroom? I just found out there is a bathroom right beside the gym. Surprise surprise.
I’m 47 years old and have been married for 24 years to 3 different men and I just realized how much I love being on my own – surprise surprise.
Last night G and E came over and we had a business meeting and a lot of wine and cheese and we listen to a lot of music. I played them my new favorite song – Crazy by Gnarls Barley – and a bunch of other tunes that we all enjoyed. It is so unbelievably wonderful to listen to music you love with friends you like hanging out with and drinking good wine and eating cheese. Why can’t life always be so good? Well it’s so good I’m going to do it again tonight at Sip, which now has a location here in MidCity and on Tuesdays and Thursdays hosts a music themed wine tasting – tonight it is French Hip Hop – who knew?
Before I left for Atlanta I had read Ernie’s blog and responded to an entry because someone asked him why there is this penchant for self revelation by bloggers – I thought E didn’t post it because I was scathing in my response to the guy – but turns out he didn’t get it. My response was remove the scales from your eyes, dude, because since Freud our world has been all about self-revelation and in so doing we have moved closer to an understanding about what it means to be human beings – I have read fiction such as MiddleMarch, The Dead, On Human Bondage, Things Fall Apart, and The Rabbit Series that helped me understand myself, I’ve read autobiographies by Katherine Graham, Bill Clinton and Maya Angelou that moved me closer to understanding other people’s motivations, I’ve read poetry by Jane Hirschfield, William Wordsworth and Wislawa Szymborska, which helped me grasp the multi dimensions of humanity, and I read and write a blog to both learn more about myself and others – to know what it means to be alive and living in full technicolor in this day and age.
Self revelation isn’t meant for everyone – but as a writer it is do or die.