The Hoarding Instinct
My mother subscribed to and collected magazines on every topic imaginable. And when her stacks became unmanageable, she bought shelves to house the stacks of magazines on. I printed out the definition of hoarding and how it is an affliction and told her she needed help.
In the past week as I’ve packed and thrown out and given to charity I realized, I, Rachel Dangermond, am a Hoarder.
Yesterday, at Zulu, I told friends I have been having such difficulty getting rid of stuff that it has almost paralyzed me. Give me an example one asked. I said I have these felt dots that go on the bottom of things to keep them from scratching the table and the sheet of dots has not been used but has been moved for the last 15 years every where that I have gone. “THROW THEM OUT!” came the chorus.
I couldn’t. I came home and they walked in the house and went right to them and went to throw them away and I said, wait, let’s see if they still stick. And they did. I’m sure, no positively sure, that now that they are gone, I will find multiple, emergency, needs and uses for those dots. But for now, they are gone.
February 13th, 2013 at 2:57 pm
Atta girl, Rachel! That’s a beginning!
February 14th, 2013 at 1:37 pm
HA! Talk about being creative — damn, you’re good-looking with those dots.
Thinking of you non-stop… every day… while I myself am engulfed in my own private jungle. Keep the faith, girl. Keep smiling. Keep going crrrrazy in all the right ways.
LOVE YOU
xoxoxoxo
February 15th, 2013 at 5:32 am
Mudd – I think about you too – and I’m so self absorbed with this transition that I can’t wait for the end of it so that I can refocus on my friends and other things. Love, R
February 15th, 2013 at 1:33 pm
Don’t worry, dawlink, we’ll still be here once you’ve settled down. It takes a lot of time and energy and GUTS to do what you’re doing, so keep a steady pace… you’re getting there!
I don’t write about my ‘transitions’ while I’m actually transitioning — lol. Maybe one day, I’ll bunch the lot of them together and finally write that book I’ve been meaning to write. In the meantime, I’m huffing and puffing along with you, feeling the tensions, praying for brighter days, confident that all will be well — oh yeah.
MORE LOVE
xoxoxoxox
February 16th, 2013 at 1:06 am
In the words of my favorite bumper sticker Mudd – “It will all be okay”