The Hard Part
N is going with his Marshall Plan – trying to rebuild or reconstruct. I have always seen such potential in him as a beautiful human being, I hope the lid is blown off for him so he can let all of those parts of him spring to life in a glorious race car in the red fashion.
I am going with the Rachel Plan – first up, therapy, second finish LaLa and have a home at least until the next evacuation, third up life decisions that follow through on what is missing from current life that will make my life more expansive – career, child, charity – and then pursued in a meaningful fashion. Elephants still roam my dreams.
I am trying to be a lion. Wonder woman. Kim Possible.
Right now I feel like I am a little sparrow – fluttering wings beating against darkness – heartbeats coming too quickly – no place to land – eyes wide open.