Lez Bee Uhn
Themes tend to swarm and perhaps they come in three as my friend and boss Jon believes but visiting AA, we went to the Hoe Down in Piedmont Park to do the 2-step. I was bait because AA had broken up with her squeeze and wanted to make her jealous. When I was leaving Atlanta, I had to drive to AA’s house and get the Bean where I had left her so she’d be safe. I was showing AA some photos of my family and told her about some who had come out recently. I said one told me she was a Lesbian and I told her, you don’t know that yet, experiment with everything and then decide who you are or what you are. AA said two things 1) I hate the word Lesbian. My mother says it with as many syllables as she possibly can. I’m gay is how I refer to it. And 2) Discourage her from being one. It’s been a tough life.
Can I tell you how that breaks my heart? The shit AA has had to go through in her life. You’d think it would be over since on college campuses being a Lesbian is “all the rage” but the stigma is still there.
Driving home S called in the middle of a panic attack and I had to talk her off the ledge. She had been in Tahoe visiting her friends, who are Lesbians. She said they, who both have daughters, worry one of them is a Lesbian. Her friend J said, “I hope she isn’t for her sake because it is a hard life.”
Last night I arrived at the Maple Leaf ahead of H&T because they were marching in the parade and I had been at a party. I was walking towards Carrollton when I was swept up with four women, one naked and in chains [it was Mardi Gras in August after all] one of them, a young hottie, came over and walked with me, flirting and asking my name and where I was going etc. She later found me on the dance floor and danced with me. Turns out she works for my vet.
I was wondering if she would have said her life is hard because she is a Lesbian, or if she is too young, or if she doesn’t think about it.
Lez Bee Uhn – love is hard enough – living with prejudice is the ugliest thing about people I know.