Moving to Portland
I’ve been thinking about S a lot lately – why he didn’t call me when I had my surgery (after all had I needed that living will he would have stood to inherit over a $1 million in cash, not to mention the property etc.) and also just unpacking and finding more evidence of a life we created together. He called late in the afternoon from the Farmer’s Market where he was looking for flageolet beans – I marvel at the irony of Steve at the Farmer’s Market searching for fresh ingredients to cook and wonder who this man is? – he is moving to Portland to partner with C – a great and talented guy and they will have a wonderful firm together – but Portland? – I marvel at how badly I wanted to get out of San Francisco and a move to Portland was just not entertained even though I would have gone anywhere to get out of California.
Who is that man? Was I with him for 16 years? Who am I?